Perhaps you identify with this statement...I am a burden bearer. I think you.... of all people, will understand and be ministered to by this painting I finished in 2004. You ....are not a wild ass running here and there among the hills, eating from this slope and then moving onto another, but have yoked yourself in obedience where God has placed you, as long as He places you there and even though you have been misunderstood in the past... bitterness can find no place to cling to you as you have the oil of joy coating each and every hair (all numbered by the Lord) and you laugh and trust in the goodness of God, because even though you do not understand the current persecution you are going through... you do know the GOODNESS and faithfulness of God and you are ....enveloped in His protective Love that He wraps you in ....just as I saw in this vision the Lord gave me.....You... are WASHED in His living water and He feeds you with food.....the world knows nothing about....
Ireceived this painting the morning of February 21, 2003 (Friday) after falling under the power of God. I was being anointed with oil for team prayer to pray for the sick at the International Headquarters of the Healing Room Ministries in Spokane, Washington and was.... (as in past testimonies for each painting) not expecting a painting to come then. I sobbed for almost two hours while seeing this vision. I hope I have been able to bring across what I saw and felt.
This painting took me over eleven months to complete and I finished it January 2004. It is now a year later (this testimony written in 2005) and I am now releasing this painting over the internet (via my mailing list). Very few individuals have seen it- unless they have looked around on this website or visited my home.
I feel as if the Lord is brooding over this one and His timing is swelling like a ripe apple that exudes a sweet aroma...so it will be with the correct timing of the Lord for the release of this vision.
My pastor friend from Indonesia when seeing this painting last May 2004, encouraged me that when this is released …it is time for the unridden donkeys to come forth! Matt 21:5 My husband, Michael, did a small study on the donkey and found the donkey is a lowly animal of peace and a princely mount! Zech 9:9 2Sam 16:2 and Judges 10:4 and 12:14. May YOU come forth little faithful donkeys… and be fed and encouraged!
If the Lord's desire was to have me become stronger through the contending, then I believe that was accomplished ...as so much has happened in my life in the past two years regarding ministry, very wonderful, but also challenging...Look up the word in Webster's dictionary (challenge)...You'll be encouraged! I am going to share from my journal as I did in the last painting -I AM Your Strong Tower- as I believe you will better understand the process and vulnerability of what is happening. As in the past, I received the scriptures which cover the painting in the first twenty four hours after seeing it.
From my journal....I saw the little donkey all cut up and wounded and knew it had been wounded in the past. It was standing head down in the grass as it had been taken off that tight little road to be ministered too. The path it was on had stone walls on each side but there is a broken opening a little before the angel blocking the way --- behind where they had come. ........(more testimony following the painting)
(testimony continues)...........There are two beautiful angels, translucent to a small degree, ministering to this little donkey and I see spiritual water being poured upon her from their buckets and also spiritual food being fed to her out of the angel's bucket on the ground.
Balaam himself has just gotten up off the ground and is kneeling by himself on one knee bent, weeping with his head bent in temporary repentance over what he has just done to his little donkey and also that even his own life has just been spared because of the obedience of his "little donkey."
I see glorious mountains and a valley in the distance where the Israelites are spread out and camping in their tents.
I understand this is a painting about the persecuted prophets, all those who have been beaten for their obedience in serving the Lord in Spirit and truth.
Balaam's foot is bloody (small detail) where the donkey had to stand on his foot as she had been pressed against the wall. The donkey is covered in blood on rear, a leg and head. Balaam is dressed richly with a purple hat, a sash of purple with iron work jewelry and strapped, elaborate sandals. The donkey stepped on one of these feet.
The road widens in bottom of painting in perspective......
You know on the home page of this website I suggested that some of you reading here could be in prison. Some of you may even have just been released from years in prison-- ---not because of any crime you have committed---but because of your faith in Jesus Christ. I would like to thank you for your faithfulness and for the testimony of your life to me.
If you have really searched around on this website you will understand how much the Lord has warned me about profiting from His anointing that He has placed upon me. This is the essence of the lesson of this painting. We must be servants of Jesus. What is HIS desire for our lives. Are you planning meetings and speaking engagements or your next sermon when really Jesus wants YOU...just time for the two of you?
You know clever foxes know how to make things work in this world through manipulation and networking and marketing, (and we do not want to be one of those). It is God who OPENS and CLOSES every door we are faced with. What does the Lord want us to learn in every circumstance we go through? We need to get back to our first love and that is Jesus ...His presence...His sweetness....His sacrifice for each of us. WE ARE being changed.
This painting was educational for me and I had to do some interesting digging. When I saw the painting I saw pretty, female eyes on the donkey and I thought, "What are those?" Also the two ministering angels and the whole set up with the road was intriguing. I saw an old knarly tree and knew they were going through some grove.
I went to the word Numbers (chapters 22-24) and was amazed to discover YES that donkey was a female and referred to in that way! Also the set up for the road and wall and gap is there. Two servants are referred to also as going with them (could they be the angels?) but I wondered about this reference so tried to ask a couple Rabbi's about the original text. Who are they servants of---Balaam or are they there for the donkey? The reason I ask is of course having seen it and knowing nothing about it before hand....the Holy Spirit had a reason for revealing it to me....I want to know more! One Rabbi responded by saying he believed that text really did refer to Balaam. If you can get a hold of that ancient text and read it in Hebrew or ancient Aramaic if that is what it is.... could you PLEASE send to me what you find out. My Hebrew is IMPROVING...but a pre-five year old level. I can sound things out but don't have grammar down or pointing of nouns and verbs. You see I am not making any of this up I really see these paintings as if I am there and I know it is of great importance to God that we understand the meaning of these things He shows me through the Holy Spirit.
Do you understand the significance and importance of what you have probably said yourself over these past years...."If God can use a donkey then I guess He can use me." Do you know how important it is for us that we identified with a little burden bearing creature, who didn't get the glory but many times a whip instead and yet was still faithful and willing to continue on the way bearing the load for her master? You are loved and cherished by the Lord and He understands your pain.
I believe the little donkey represents the love and respect we are to have for one another. She demonstrates perseverance. She models obedience and submission.
But there are certainly many more lessons in what I saw. I saw the perversion and evil of Balaam's error. I saw the selling and merchandising of the anointing for profit. Remember also when you go back to the word that Balaam is NOT Hebrew but a false prophet known to King Balak for the accuracy and power of what he spoke --through witchcraft! I saw Balaam's temporary repentance ---because he got caught--- and was in danger of death. There seems to be a short term memory of the whole thing as I went to the word and followed his life until death (many references)and there certainly never is a turning from his sin even though he seems to understand the power of God.
I saw the beauty of Israel like a baby just beginning to walk. This part is hard to put in the painting as I saw the whole of Israel spread out but knew from this vantage point most tents were hidden behind a hill. If you have read any of the past testimonies you will remember when I saw Jesus and the children and the perspective was way back, well again there are choices as to how the Lord allows me to paint it.... You see this is not about art but about a message...and He has anointed me to reach you this way. I really am just trying to visually share with you what I have seen in the Holy Spirit.
I did see the Shema over the tents. Did you know that same passage is in the Christian bible in Mark 12:29? It doesn't matter that one is a son of Abraham.... there is only one way to heaven and that is through the atonement of...Jesus Christ---Yeshua ha Mashiach (Yah ho shu wah) - Mashiach - both Ben Joseph and Ben David ...suffering servant & king in ONE echad Messiah.... GOD SAVES. Yes He did it himself.......just as He said He would do in the scriptures...by His own right hand (Isaiah 49 He engraved you on His hands...the nail scars!). Did you know also, from the word, that this all occurred in the midst of a vineyard? Interesting huh? I really am not going to spell this out as I believe when you pray the Lord himself will bring wisdom and knowledge to you right where you are.
Now here is another message I understood during this anointing. Some of you have little donkeys in your midst serving you, trying to intercede for you and sometimes they have run into the wall for you trying to protect you from running into disaster. Right now they go out as peace-makers for you bringing hope to some of those you have naively wounded...Please bless your little donkeys as they have only the best intentions for you in their hearts. You, Rabbi, Pastor, Reverend, have the power to bless and to curse and it is felt like a whip when words pour from your mouth against your donkeys. You are a fully loaded AK 47 in the Holy Spirit, because you know that Jesus Christ is Lord and Your Savior. The anointing resides in you. Remember Saul...the anointing never left him even though he certainly was a madman and murderer in the end. Love....LOVE...covers OVER a multitude of sins.
Love is Not For Sale. Please copy these paintings for free off this web site. The paintings will never be marketed.
left: the tents of Israel (closeup) below: closeup of Balaam after getting up off the ground, below left Peter's warning
below right: the little donkey
Four of these paintings have been shown in the United States Senate, Russell Rotunda, in Washington D.C. under both the Clinton and Bush administrations through the Christ Jesus Ministry of Reston, Virginia. The first two paintings were shown in June of 1999, I Will Never Leave You Or Forsake You, was exhibited in May 2001, three months prior to the terrorist attack on America, and the painting --I Am Your Strong Tower-- was shown in May 2003. The above painting was finished January 2004. See each web page for more information and the past news articles from the Washington Post and the Seattle Times.
These paintings are not for sale. You may make personal copies for yourself (not for resale) via this website. Please keep the title with the painting and refer to the website for scriptures covering each painting and include the testimony please. WE OVERCOME by the Blood of the Lamb, the word of our testimony and we love NOT our lives unto death.
Thank you for your interest in this ministry and may you be ABUNDANTLY blessed in every area in the name of Jesus Christ---
These close-ups are true to the color of the actual painting. Soon I will have available a new photo of the painting for you to print a copy for yourselves for framing. Be Blessed--Terri Derocher June 2007
Rev. Terri Derocher has been painting visions since October of 1998, the year she made her first pilgrimage to Israel. Terri is an ordained minister through Christian Life Church in Spokane, Washington. She shares what the Holy Spirit instructs her to share - via a painting or words, spoken or written. She has had an open door to display her paintings in the United States Senate, Russell Rotunda, in Washington D.C, on three different occasions, under both the Clinton and Bush administrations. ,
She is a member of Ministers Fellowship International. Terri is also the Healing Room Director for the Northgate Healing Room, affiliated with the International Healing Room Ministries headquartered in Spokane, Washington, directed by Cal and Michelle Pierce. Terri has been on staff with the International Healing Room Ministries in the past as Graphics Department head and was a trainer for the ministry team for two years. She believes Jesus Christ is the healer and all glory and honor belong to Him and by His stripes (Isaiah 53) we are healed. Jesus finished it all on the cross. She blesses the work of the Healing Room Ministries and believes the revelation to come forth from that well has only just begun to flow.
Terri and her husband Michael and sons moved from the East Coast to the West Coast in December of 2000. They are members at Christian Life Church in Spokane, Washington under the direction of Pastors Barry & Kay Hill.
She prays for the protection of Israel. Terri rejects "Replacement Theology" and believes Israel has commands and mandates, such as the protection of original Hebrew scrolls intact and occupying the land itself, that "the church" isn't equipped or called to carry out- and yet The Almighty has never released Israel from these same commands.
She does believe the promises to Israel also belong to the church because we have been grafted into the original olive tree and therefore, as scripture foretold, it has become possible for all nations to be blessed as Israel has been blessed, through our Messiah, Jesus.
Terri's goal is to bring the message of our Messiah Jesus, His love, His hope, His joy, His peace, and His salvation to every nation on this earth. She laughs in joy at what God has done with these paintings while she worships at His feet! All things are possible through Christ Jesus and she wants to always be His friend.