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Date: Fri, 1 Jun 2001 15:31:03 -0700

Subject: Samuel's Weakness....

The Lord spoke this to me at about the time of our last school shooting.  I'd like to submit it now. I think it could help for some not to repeat the same mistakes we who serve the Lord are STILL susceptible to. Please pray as to timing and that discernment is correct. Thank you so much and God Bless You. In the love of Jesus Christ- Terri Derocher

Do I have the same weakness as Samuel? Do you have the
weakness of Samuel? We know that Samuel was the child asked for
from God by his mother Hannah. After he was weaned she gave him
up. Sewing him his little priestly garments and bringing them yearly, she watched from a distance, truly sacrificing her son to the priesthood and being true to her word that she would give this child TO the Lord if He would only allow her to conceive a child. 1 Sam 1

Samuel grew up and grew in the Lord. It had been many, many
years since a prophet had heard the voice of the Lord and yet the Lord
spoke to this child. The first message was a prophecy concerning Eli, 
the priest who was raising and training Samuel. The message
concerned the blind spot Eli had concerning his evil sons. Eli knew the
meaning of righteousness and yet he looked the other way when his
sons perverted the sacrifice by taking the best of everything for
themselves. Can you imagine the heartbreak of the poor fellow (let alone the Lord's) who truly brought his best and his all to the Lord only to watch these who were in authority over him scoff and mock the God he loved and cherished---- by STEALING from the Lord.

Eli loved his sons. When they were small he probably looked at them
and thought he had never seen more beautiful eyes than the eyes of his
sons. When they were mischievous at four he might have laughed and
thought how clever and strong and funny they were. He may have
deluded himself with the thought that these "great" characteristics came from his family side. Did he see himself in his children and so turn aside from their correction early (pride)? Did Eli's wife (who is never mentioned) condone and even encourage this looking away from
REBELLION or when Eli TRIED to correct his children.... chastise and
nag and tell Eli, "they're not hurting anything - don't be so hard on t
hem!!!!" We aren't really given the actual dynamics of child rearing, but can only speculate from the statement made by the Lord to Samuel in
1 Sam 3:13 that Eli had failed to restrain them. But... The result of this looking away and letting it all slip by....was a tree which grew the most corrupted, rebellious, conniving, greedy, disrespectful, rotted, useless and poisonous ----fruit----Eli's sons. Who and what would Eli's sons have been if they had been trained with discipline and strict respect for the Lord and their fellow man?

This is the environment Samuel grew up in. Now the Lord loved
Samuel and Samuel was the prophet the Lord trusted to anoint Saul
and later David... as king of all of His people. Samuel was a man of
deep love for the Lord--but also for those he prayed and watched over.
At a time in my past, a time when I had been deeply grieved by a friend
who was sinking in a pit of sin, I cried over the passage where Samuel
MOURNS over Saul and his sin. (1 Sam 16: 1) but The Lord said to
Samuel, "How long will you mourn for Saul, since I have rejected him
as king over Israel? Samuel's love for Saul is real!! Can we become
swayed by our love for those the Lord puts in our care? Can we love
them so much and so desperately ...we look the other way when they
sin??.....In the case of Samuel and Saul...Samuel honored the Lord by
never going to see Saul again even to the day he died, 1 SAM 15:35,
even though his heart broke for Saul!!!!

When we consider prophets of greatness and trustworthiness we
remember Samuel... and his words to Eli, his role with Jesse and his
shepherd son, David ...but for me I remember his love.

I have tried to find out more about Samuel and his life. His home was
in Ramah and he always went back to Ramah. 1 Sam 7:17 But I was
very sad to find out the story of Samuel's son's and would just submit
to you this is a place of weakness we as people of God need to be SO
aware of. In 1 SAM 8:3 we find----- just like Eli----Samuel's sons did
not walk in their father's ways. They turned aside after dishonest gain
and accepted bribes and perverted justice....Do you know this rebellion
of Samuel's sons is even stated as the reason the people ASK FOR A
KING???? The people saw hypocrisy!!! (1 Sam 8:5)

This is heartbreaking to me. I have three sons. The oldest is not
walking with the Lord yet. The younger have been raised entirely
different but are there still places I am contributing to their rebellion?
Are my children honoring me and their father? Are my children
submitting to our authority as parents and teachers?? If my children
are not submitting to my authority consistently, how can they ever
submit to a spiritual authority in church and ultimately the authority of our Lord Jesus Christ??

Would you agree that much of our youth in America are in rebellion???
I don't mean teen-age characteristics of trying out new ideas etc. That
is a stage of development and letting go....I mean out right rebellion to concepts of life and murder and money and greed and patience and
endurance and long-suffering. I am talking about rebellion to core values of right and wrong.

Where are we, as parents in the body of Christ contributing to this
rebellion?? Are we looking the other way when we ask our children to
stop playing that game and they continue? Do we let our children stay
up late at night watching television? Do we ask for something to get
done and it doesn't get done so we give up because it is so much easier
to do it ourselves? These are the symptoms of a tree which will produce
poisonous fruit!!!!

I want you to know I am talking here to myself because the Lord is
talking to me about rebellion and submission. I need prayer to be the
best parent I can be. We need to pray for parents in the body of Christ
because we will be judged first. If this is a sin that broke the heart of the Lord in the time of Eli and Samuel...we know it still breaks the
Father's heart.

May God Bless you with wisdom and courage and strength in the
name of Jesus Christ to be a God-fearing caretaker of His children...
so they can become the sweet fruit He desires them to become.

Terri Derocher
Samuel's Weakness....  Fri, 1 Jun 2001 
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Subject: A Noxious Weed...The Spirit Of Slander

Today I had my heart torn with joy and sorrow by something locally
known as a "noxious weed". I am new to the Northwest. We've recently
moved from the Northeast where I knew all the flowers and plants and
weeds. This is my first spring here and it is a delight to see all the new plants appear and bloom after the snow cover melted.

There is a beautiful royal blue flower blooming now with a beautiful
little white eye and it is known as Bugloss (perennial book lists it as
Italian Bugloss). When picked in tight bunches and placed in an old
vase it lights up the room and I feel blessed every time I glance over to see it.

I have neighbors who tried to educate me about the beauty of
Bugloss. I sheepishly would sneak out and pick it and be ridiculed
for spreading around this nasty little plant!

Finally I brought my neighbors in to see this plant in my home
yesterday. They were shocked and delighted to see its beauty in the

Today as I sat at my table again gazing at this beautiful little
creation of the Lords that's so scorned I was moved to heartbreak
because of the evil words used to describe it and thought again of the
power of words and the opinion of men and how much weight we put
on "their" words.

Slander is its name. Slander ...what a poisonous word. The
labels we put on each other... That little boy in the neighborhood is a
trouble maker. Stay away from him. What are we prophesying with
our mouths about everything around us? I'm talking to myself here also....

You are good. God made You and You are good. You are a
delight to my eyes. You are so generous!! Wow you are a wonderful
cook! You know you are a mechanical genius. I know you can fix
anything. You are really getting good at math!!!

What is the beauty in the little boy? What is the beauty in the
sand? What is the beauty in your life? LOOK hard and I know you'll
find it. It may be trampled and squished under a bunch of evil words 
(maybe you're the one who plastered them all over it!!!).... but if you
sweep them aside you may find a beautiful flower instead of a weed, 
a New friend instead of a pest, a companion instead of a flea bitten
mutt, a beautiful hope-filled promise instead of a curse and maybe
you'll see a glimpse of the King in all of His glory as He passes
through the flowers on His way to the throne.....

May you see Him dance over you as He sees you delighting in all
His blessings...and May you be blessed in His name....

Jesus Christ our Lord. Terri Derocher

A Noxious Weed...The Spirit Of Slander Thu, 7 Jun 2001 
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Subject: John 6:66......Flesh & Blood & Bread

This may be radical. So be it! Please pray for the discernment of
the Holy Spirit as a witness to the truth and timing of this word.
God bless you Always In Jesus’ name---Terri Derocher

In one of the postings recently...there was a reference to John 6: 63
which is part of a much greater and very important teaching which I felt needed to be addressed because it is so very, very important.....
John 6:66 ....Yes it does mean something.....

If you have never been aware of the lesson taught in this scripture, 
I would like to share a revelation I learned through the Holy Spirit
inspired teaching of Dick Reuben of the Brownsville revival. The Lord
called Dick, who was the Messianic teacher preceding Dr. Michael
Brown, out after the first two years of the revival to take the teaching given to him all over the world. In 1998 I sat in a big tent in the woods in Canada (around Ottawa) where for three days we were taught about having the radical passion for Jesus such as James & John & Peter had & about Kiddish and Passover/Communion. There we learned about John 6:66 also--it is this........There are many, many things we still need to learn from the Old Testament, sometimes because of our
understanding and taking for granted of God's grace we just don't dig
deep enough into the truths we have in front of us. If we understood
better the scriptures, we would be better equipped to go into the
streets. We can better understand what Jesus is truly talking about
in this passage, if we understand the Jewish background of where He
is coming from scripturally, then the offense is better understood.

Communion/Passover was the last thing Jesus did corporately
before the crucifixion and the first thing after the resurrection. Many
fellowships of believers seem to have lost the passion and desire to
understand the truths about communion. We should pray for the
discernment of the Holy Spirit and dig deeper. As Dick said in 1998...
"We have communion in most churches the last five minutes of church
once a month". Many, many churches have completely abandoned
celebrating the table of the Lord together.

My life was changed by a challenge Dick gave us in 1998...he said
HAVE COMMUNION EVERYDAY FOR 30 DAYS WITH YOUR FAMILY IN YOUR HOME. The intimacy that came into our family from following this suggestion was remarkable. We need to bring this in again now as our nine year old reminded us a couple weeks ago. He loved it, so did all the family. It was a time we all stopped and each had a part as we were Holy Spirit lead, as each member picked scriptures to share. It became a time of encouragement in the gifts also for the children.  Again it was intimate.

Dick reminded us of the difference between Kiddish & Passover...
the way Jesus performed it. They are exactly opposite and we do it
Jesus’ way!! The orthodox take the cup then the bread. Jesus took
the bread then the wine.....

Now back to John 6:66 all the disciples but 12 turned back
because they couldn't accept communion....Here is this entire lesson....

Jesus revealed and said... in John 6:51-66... " I am the bread that
came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live
forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the

Then the Jews began to argue sharply among themselves, "How
can this man give us his flesh to eat?" (Remember the kosher laws
for blood & flesh)

Jesus said to them, "I tell you the truth, unless you eat the flesh
of the Son of Man and drink his blood, YOU HAVE NO LIFE IN YOU.
Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will
raise him up at the last day. For as my flesh is real food and my
blood is real drink. Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has
eternal life, remains in me, and I in him. Just as the Father sent me
and I live because of the Father, so the one who feeds on me will live
because of me. This is the bread that came down from heaven. Your
forefathers ate manna and died, but he who feeds on this bread will live forever." He said this while teaching in the synagogue in Capernaum.

On hearing it, many of his disciples said, "This is a hard teaching.
Who can accept it?"

Aware that His disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to
them, "Does this offend you? What if you see the Son of Man ascend
to where he was before! The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life". (The words He had just spoken about being the bread & blood we must drink and also ALL the teachings He had given them up to this time) Jesus continues...."YET there are some of you who do not believe." You see, Jesus had known from the beginning which of them would betray Him.
He went on to say, "This is why I told you that no one can come to me
unless the Father has enabled him". FROM THIS TIME MANY OF HIS
JOHN 6:66

This is the teaching on which they scattered and only the twelve
apostles remain. (continue reading...)

What has happened to the teaching on communion? Why is it
being lost and abandoned by so many denominations? It is one of the
things we are commanded to do in remembrance of Him Luke 22:19
DO THIS (oh was that a suggestion....)in remembrance of me.

I have been hearing rumblings of strange teachings lately and I want
it known what I believe. I am wondering are many taking part of the
scriptures here and a piece there and deciding for themselves what is
real or not? I believe the Bible is the Real living--- meant as it is--- word of God. I believe we are being disobedient by not holding communion.... and yes I believe we are being robbed of intimacy with our Lord Jesus.

Now just as this teaching, when Jesus spoke it then brought a mirror
to the faces of the numerous disciples who heard it is a teaching
which brings a mirror to us. Look in the mirror. What is it you believe?????

I am passionate about healing. I believe--YES I really do---that I will
raise the dead in the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth because He
SAID IT...I believe all the other things He said also....

May you and your family be blessed in the name of Jesus Christ
----Terri Derocher

Mon, 11 Jun 2001 12:25:00 -0700
Subject: In The Box...Out Of The Box....

One of the things that keeps being gently kneaded into my heart
since the time in Washington DC at the restoration of God's glory in
the Art's event held about 3 wks ago now... is that many intercessors
came together from different backgrounds, cultures, denominations, 
countries and we were poured together like different fluids being
poured into one bottle. It was like swirling around and getting close
enough to examine very different looks and tastes!! It was very
encouraging and exciting and liberating and safely
could that be?

Out of Pennsyvania we got a taste of the new harp & bowl
movement....many are coming completely out of traditional churches
and coming together for extended 24 hr times of intercession and
praise where the instruments....drums, voices, harps, guitars, sticks
and bells are totally turned over to the Holy Spirit and if that happens to take seven hours or be it ...let the Lord reign and we don't limit what He is trying to accomplish through these tools.

Out of Maryland I was introduced to a fairly new denomination
C.C.E.C. -the Catholic Charismatic Episcopal church (the first Bishop
was appointed in June of 1992)- a Holy Spirit lead church where words
and prophesy come forth in the midst of traditional liturgy with
communion held each time they come together. Davidic dance to the
Lord is evident as well as the Shema (Jesus states it in Mark 12:29) 
being a part of each service. This denomination is a converging of
streams from Pentecostal, Catholic, Baptist, Episcopal, Wesleyans,
Anglicans and Messianic Jews (with the shape of the liturgy dating from
the ancient apostles whose roots are in the Judaic worship of the
temple and synagogue combined with the Eucharistic services of the
early Christians.)

From Finland I've learned about the Lutheran church which for you
who have been familiar with the late life writings of Martin Luther's Baar document of anti-Semitism--have become protective and at times life saving of the Finnish Jewish population. Great things are happening in the Lutheran church also.

From the Washington DC area I got a taste of RICH African-
American gospel teaching and praise, with an intensity and
discernment as to strongholds that must be brought down. I found
such heart-wrenching...tender power that is the result of much
persecution and false judging placed upon them and then rising in the
midst...but like the kneading of the dough ....the praise becomes
smoother and sweeter and PURER...

I feel we are in such a time of change in the Lord. Some will be
doing the exact opposite of what you are doing and it is going to be
the exact right thing for them to do because they are obeying the Lord.
I see people in boxes with people coming out of their box walking
around it and examining it(boxes=churches) and then walking away
because they are joining many called to come together outside alone....
then I see others like myself coming along walking around the box and
crawling inside and seeing that is good because it serves the Lord's
purpose to reach His people locally and internationally. I for one am
very, very shocked by this revelation as I would've thought I would
crawl out of the box....but I believe many, many are going to be going
through this changing of houses and it is like we are people who have
been wearing the wrong size clothes and we are going to be trading
around the right sizes and everybody is going to be dressed the way
they should be!!! Because of these changes...many, many people
are going to accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior because
YOU sought the Lord as to where you should be. Many are going to
GO and sit at the feet of Rabbis in order to learn about the Jewish
roots of our faith. There will be little spiritual winnowing machines for them (for those of you who don't know --berries such as blueberries
are put in a winnowing machines, spun around and the sticks and
leaves are blown away and the juicy good berry is left.) There will be
no clinging dead religion but only the pure fruit and THERE IS fruitful
knowledge THERE to be winnowed....Many... like one of my sisters....
will learn all they can about Islam so they will be prepared in season
and out of season when the Lord presents the opportunity in the
Muslim country she is located in.

God has assignments for us all. The sermon I heard yesterday
was one you have heard..... About radical Christianity....It IS time for us to be doers of the word and not hearers only. BE BOLD FOR

In my Bible many years ago I underlined a passage in
Exodus 14:14...BUT I really never went further until it was pointed out
yesterday.....the situation is the Israelites backed up against the Red
Sea and the Egyptians coming up on the rear....I had underlined the
part about Moses’ word of encouragement TO THE people...stand
firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring today....the
Lord will fight for you; you need only be still....... I know why I
underlined it before. It is just a great encouragement to know that ...
BUT do you realize what the Lord said to Moses next????? "WHY
ON...................RAISE YOUR STAFF......I know the Lord is also
YOU WAITING FOR?????!!!!!!!!!!!MOVE OUT}}}}}}}}}

Man is not prepared for the radical boldness you will move out in....
Pastors and Priests and deacons are not prepared for the boldness
you WILL go forth in ...but God is Prepared because He made you
and appointed you for such a time as this....Find your place....I see a
huge army with the guy in the second battalion moving and jumping in
a different battalion. I see a new battalion being formed ...each one
already knowing his position. I see those re-strengthening and
regrouping of the old battalions as the winnowing has even made it
more cohesive. I see a knowing and a loving of each other and of the
"different" battalions as a divine strategy is poured out over all.
I get really excited when I get a little peek...and I know it is so
small... of the goodness and greatness and HOLINESS and PURITY
of God's plan. When we find each other and see the Holy Spirit in
each other..We feel wow... my right arm did I get along without
you before.....

I do wait for the literal second coming of Christ and I believe the
Bible when it is stated in Acts 1: 9-11 ...after He said this, He was
taken up before their very eyes, and a cloud hid Him from their sight.
They were looking intently up into the sky as He was going, when
suddenly two men dressed in white stood beside them. "Men of
Galilee, they said, "Why do you stand here looking into the sky? This
same Jesus, who has been taken from you into heaven, WILL COME
BACK IN THE SAME WAY YOU HAVE SEEN HIM GO INTO HEAVEN." and Isaiah 11:11... In that day the Lord will reach out His hand a SECOND TIME to claim the remnant that is left of HIS people..........

Get up.... move out... because there are those YOU are to reach
with the gospel before He returns........ be radical......because time is short!!!!!

Terri Derocher

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Date: Thu, 28 Jun 2001 19:28:27 -0700
Subject: Shake, Rattle & Roll!!!!!!

UNITY!!!!!!!! How can there be unity and YET there must be unity!!!!!!

I have just shared with a friend intercessor that I have been like a stew ...simmering and cooking on the stove and processing and figuring out HOW in the human language I can pour this out so it can be UNDERSTOOD!!!!!!!

Last Sunday during a time of Holy Worship I started seeing us ...YOU & ME !!!! and I mean China and I mean Russia and I mean Israel and I mean Africa & Columbia & Egypt & Puerto Rico & Native Americans & Pentecostals and Catholics & Baptists & Black gospel & Episcopalians & Methodists...keep going because I saw US all...
we were DEEPLY disturbed by each others praise styles!!!!! We would be basking in that presence of the Holy Spirit and then like an out of tune squawk I would hear you would hear me...... and we would think.... WHAT IS THAT NOISE??????? How can that be praise????? We would be startled by that trilling tongue!!!! Well that sounds like witchcraft to me. It is just so weird how can that be praise to Jesus Christ???? You've got to be kidding me why are they swaying.....Why are they kneeling like is just SO religious..... Do they think that's HOLY???????

Then I saw Jesus smiling and loving and understanding all of us.  The problem was we didn't understand each other. We were expressing joy and love to our Savior in the cultural way we were all taught. The Lord then reminded me of differences in death rites and how sorrow is expressed so differently world-wide and how we think something is so disrespectful in one culture and it's the correct thing to do in another!!!!! We are taught ways to express love and joy and respect and honor that are very different than each others way!!!!!!

I saw us climbing this mountain together with the Lord on the top...He is our destination. The bottom of the mountain is huge and we encircle it....not seeing each other and certainly not understanding each other BUT then we begin to climb the mountain of the Lord and we start to hear each others voices as we climb and the mountain becomes smaller and peak like...we begin to see glimpses of each
other and in our dullness (sorry but it's sure true) it suddenly dawns on us that this group and that group are doing the same thing we are doing!!!!! Trying to reach the Lord Jesus Christ---Savior of the world---who died for us all on the cross at Calvary!!!!! What are those strange names He is being called? Wow I never knew Jesus had so many names in so many languages!!!!!!!

Now back to us now....Intercessors what is God doing with us??????
We want to submit....we try to submit and God topples our little structures and yet we learn submission and obedience again. Hang on....I see US flying in the wind trying to keep with a roller coaster that is whipping this way and that.....BUT OH SO GOOD......................WHEWWWWWW is this making sense????? We must strive and fight for unity and even when we find we don't have it ...we must look, look harder for it!!!! And God says not this walk here....We must Bless and not curse and strive and fight and see the good and Holiness that we are surrounded by....PART AWAY THOSE RAGS!!!!!!
Because the Glory is here!!!!!!!! You are being deceived to think it's not.

I read a word today by the late watchman Nee that said in essence who are you working for????...Who are you preaching for???? Who are you singing for????? If you are not doing it UNTO & FOR & BECAUSE of our Lord Jesus Christ are just pleasing that old stinking flesh AGAIN...... Intimacy!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT IS HIS
CRY TO US!!!!! COME ASIDE BY YOURSELVES AND REST AWHILE WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RUN don't walk! GO pick up that Bible read and be fed and bathed and washed clean in the word of God...then just you & Him.....let Him tell you the rest!!!!

God Bless YOU & All your family in the name of Jesus Christ!!!
Terri Derocher

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Date: Tue, 3 Jul 2001 23:22:01 -0700
Subject: Unity~Shake, Rattle & Roll Part 2

Well it seems the Lord is still speaking more daily on this word on
Unity..Please go back and read part 1 if you missed it so you'll know
what I am referring to.

I see a dog chasing and biting its own tail. In confusion the dog
thinks that tail is his enemy and he hates it and chases it and can
never quite catch it and is really frustrated about this and as he sleeps he sometimes wakes and sees that old tail and tries to pounce on it and occasionally gets hold of it and really chomps down hard and ... really hurts...but the dog is so deluded it still doesn't realize he has bit his own tail...that his tail is part of his OWN body.

I hope you can instantly recognize the body of Christ in this picture
and how we are attacking our own body... injuring our own selves in our
attacks... and how stupidly futile and wasted our energy is when out
and around us the unsaved have so many needs unmet. The enemy of
our Lord Jesus Christ laughs at us chasing and biting each other
because he KNOWS we are the ONE body of Christ!!!!

What I have been rebuked about by the Lord this week are the
precious saints & prophets of God from the past 30-50 years that I
have judged and been offended at because they have persecuted the
current move of God. What the Lord brought into my view was the
REAL battle. In trying to find information on a particular prayer group
I have run across pure satanic lies about our Lord Jesus Christ!!! Do
you realize how many groups that are NOT Christian are out there ...
trying DAILY.... HOURLY.... BY THE MINUTE to chip away and chop
up and rewrite the truth of the gospel?.....There is a real enemy out
there and it is not US!!!!

In suddenly becoming aware of this huge battle out there...I was
reminded of a particular prophet used mightily in the 1960's. This
man persecuted the current move of God with the gold and feathers
appearing. Now since I have witnessed such great wonders in the
ministry of such humble servants of Jesus Christ as the late Ruth
Ward Heflin and others I immediately picked up offense at this man
and others like him when they criticized what they hadn't seen or been
apart of. Ruth is so precious to me but.... I AM wrong and I repent
Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do YOU understand how wrong I am?????? This man
is preaching the gospel and is still bringing thousands of believers into the kingdom of God by preaching and prophesying the truth of the
gospel.....SO WHAT... IF HE DOESN"T UNDERSTAND ALL THAT"S GOING ON!!!! GOD BLESS HIM IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRISTOF NAZARETH FOR CONTINUING TO SPEAK!!!!! I don't know all that is going on. We each have but such a weenie little piece of the truth and we ARE ALL ON THE SAME SIDE!!!! We believe that Jesus Christ died on the cross at Calvary in atonement for our sins... then HE ROSE FROM THE DEAD and prepares a place for us and
waits for us and intercedes for us with the Father!!!!!! WE are GOING

It is time we have a revelation of who and what the enemy is ....
IT'S NOT US!!!!!!

For those who are currently in a dark little corner where the trickle
of revelation (the river) is just starting to break through the cracks in those walls.....HOLD ON....God has strategically placed little twinkles of light everywhere and you may be the little light in your corner!!!!! I am filled with increasing hope in all this and an increasing building like a crescendo of praise & glory coming!!!!! Remember to hang on through the shaking and BLESS DON"T CURSE....throw away that offense when it tries to cling like a scummy old film of dirty's useless and bait of the enemy!!!!!! (It clouds your vision!) Endure!!!!!!
And hang on!!!!

God Bless You All in the PRECIOUS name of our
LORD JESUS CHRIST!!!!!! Terri Derocher

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Date: Tue, 10 Jul 2001 18:01:12 -0700
Subject: Separating the Iris.....

I'd like to submit this word to encourage those who are moving or
have moved out for the Lord....
May the Lord Bless your family with fresh, new, intimacy in Him this
week. Love in Jesus Christ --Terri Derocher

This is a word the Lord is speaking to me...for me...but I think He
wants me to share it with you help you understand what is
happening to you and why it had to be this way.

.....To grow beautiful flowers requires a good, knowledgeable gardener
who knows what each little plant requires for its best potential growth.  Some plants only grow well in the shade and they really like wet, cool "feet" while others will perish in the same environment. I am very thankful for those sturdy, rugged desert-surviving little plants such as marigolds who really like it hot and in the full bright sun, but I love those bog plants too!! Roses don't like to have their leaves left wet, especially at night because all sorts of mildew & fungus can begin to grow. Some plants give it "all" in one blast...much like the forth of July fireworks and then they are spent.

We really are like flowers and plants in many respects only we
don't know much about ourselves or our requirements...but Our Father
does and sometimes what seems down right painful to us is just about
the most merciful, life-giving thing He can do for us.

We are all so wonderfully different than each other. You... were
especially created for a specific job and place ...(Acts 17:26 ..From
one man He made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the
whole earth; and He determined the times set for them and the exact
places where they should live!!!!)... And YOU are the one God has sent… Or will send... to this job. The sending can be to the shut-in across the street or it can be going across the world to care for just a single child such as when Lydia Prince was sent to Jerusalem in the 1940's. Out of the obedience of going... whether it is across the street or the world... fruit will be brought forth...just as when a plant is patiently taken care of and nurtured and then transplanted, for it's own good, to a new garden spot...It grows in ways it never could before.

Having to move out and be separated is for me ...and maybe you...
the painful part. If you are part of a church family and truly feel they are your family, you know just what I mean. When you arrive at your new location nothing is familiar and for the most part you are alone.  You are FORCED to return WHOLE HEARTEDLY to your first love
(OUR JESUS). You may have prayer concerns and there seems no
one to pray with...In desperation you go to the Father. You miss the
intimacy of fellowshipping and worshipping with others you
intimately seek out the Father who is a friend who NEVER forsakes
you and sticks CLOSER than a brother. Can you get the picture....
little grieving one?? This word is not for everyone but perhaps it can
be stored for the future...that is the Lord's business. What we should
be doing....seeking the intimate face of our Father.....we are not doing in our present circumstances.. So.....HE has separated us out for our own good...for HIS good ...for the two of you (just you & Him!)
TOGETHER....He is a wonderfully Jealous God and He has missed
you. You were leaning on man and not HIM!!!! He wants to take you
higher ...closer...

The iris flower is much like you & me. It grows and blooms so
beautifully in the soil and is really quite adaptable to many diverse
conditions whether wet or dry...but the iris needs ROOM TO GROW!!!!
After awhile all the little iris plants crowd and squeeze each other and fight for nutrients and the iris flower doesn't bloom as much ..if at all.  Oh I'll let Andy send up that flower (give that word). We become overcrowded and dependant on each other and forget who it is we are blooming for and why...and then there is the Iris borer (a little worm that attacks the in-grown, unkempt iris beds).

The "Good Gardener" knows the requirements of each little flower
and He knows their times and seasons. He knows when it is time to
take the knife and separate and break apart the iris and then He
tenderly finds a new place for that little iris to grow and bloom. In the new roomy garden, the air is brisk and fresh and there is plenty of
room to spread out and grow and forget HOW MUCH there
is still to learn...when you are surrounded by those who know so much
and who you have depended on for all the answers!!!! Now you must
seek it out and learn it from the source....

I just want to encourage you that have been transplanted for the
Lord this year and are just growing up in your new garden. Yes it is
painful.. to be moved ...and leave everything you know that is familiar but God has a plan and purpose---a great and wonderful one for you... just trust HIM.... He knows what's best for will suddenly look around and realize that you are sending up the most gorgeous, huge
bloom that couldn't possibly come to pass in that old garden!!!

God Bless All of you in the name of Jesus Christ--Terri Derocher

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Separating the Iris.....  Tue, 10 Jul 2001 
Date: Wed, 18 Jul 2001 14:26:10 -0700
Subject: Capture the Flag!!!

I hear the same thing in any direction I turn. Move out!! Take
ground!!! It's time!!! I've given you the authority...NOW MOVE OUT!!!!
I see trumpets shouting it... all around us... surrounding us..... Urging us to get going!!!! I hear prophetic voices shouting it...proclaiming it in different languages in different styles in different manners ALL so the message will be received and digested and ACTED upon.

Last week was a real trial-eye opener- encouraging week...all in
one!! Simple things in the real world are how the Lord starts talking
to me in the Spirit.

It began with a game of capture the flag at dusk on a steep hillside
with our growth group at church. The hillside was covered in pine trees
with an under cover of broken branches and sticks and slippery pine
needles. We had two teams facing each other after hiding our flags,
each in our own territory. The object of the game is to CROSS-OVER
into the other team’s territory and capture the flag and bring it back to your territory. What a wake up call it has been for me. We stood and
faced each other off, guarding our own territory, not wanting to risk
going into that enemy territory and somehow be captured ---even if it
was to rescue a captured team member!! For a while it was a
stalemate. My team eventually won thanks to the brave exploits of
one young man!!

I've got a question for you. What are you afraid of?? We are
Called ...We are SENT into the enemy territory to break DOWN the
gates (the gates of hell WILL NOT prevail against the plan of OUR
GOD) Matt 16:18 we are already equipped. He has equipped us...
just as He equipped the twelve spies (Num 13:1&2) ...if only they
would've believed Him. We are not supposed to sit around
GUARDING the church!!!!! We are to go out, knock on doors, take
it to the the old time country doctor...healing and
salvation are to be brought out of the church to those who are
unable FOR WHATEVER reason to go to church.

Here is the next lesson, the next day. There is a big, black,
loud (barking) German Shepard dog living behind my house with no
physical fence but an unseen electrical fence keeping him from
reaching me!!! I go outside to water etc. and he charges towards
me sounding, at least to me, very vicious. One time after this
surprise attack (ha) my hands trembled for about a half hour from
the adrenaline. I was plagued by thoughts of the woman killed in
California trying to just get in her apartment door with a couple bags
of groceries and then she was devoured by two dogs.

Besides this fear of dogs the enemy uses the fear of rejection
and fear of man to TRY to torment me and keep me from moving
out. BUT God showed me that dog needed help and wanted me to
show mercy to him... even having me get water to him as his owners
had him out in the 95 degree sun that day with no water. (No I didn't
touch him but scooted my hose to him within 10 ft and he drank for
15 minutes and then happily lay in the water!) And I KNOW my
Jesus was stretching me and teaching me to trust...telling me that
He will always protect me. And no it sure isn't easy. The dog
charged at me the next day again!!! BUT!!!

...I am still going to move out. MOVE OUT!!!! I proclaim it in

Psalm 34:4 He delivered me from all my fears!! I AM BORN OF
I am an AMBASSADOR for CHRIST!! 2Cor 5:20 I am STRONG in
the Lord. Eph 6:10 I have received the POWER of the Holy Spirit:
Power to lay hands on the sick and see them recover: Power to
cast out demons: Power over ALL power of the enemy. Mk 16:17
I am delivered from the power of darkness and transformed into
God's kingdom!!! Col 1:13 I always triumph in Christ. 2 Cor 2:14
I AM VICTORIOUS!!!!!! Rev. 21:7 Proclaim these things yourself!!!

Let's do it NOW...let's do what God has given us the authority to
do. The twelve spies saw the miracles of God, great wonders...but
they still didn't trust God. Just as when Jesus SENT out the 72 He
SENDS us out and besides not sending us out alone (we pray for
each other and lift each other up) We also NEED to remember WHO
IT IS that sent them out...WHO it is that SENDS us out....To HIM
our Jesus...victorious King of Kings we give All the glory and honor
and praise and thanksgiving that He SENDS us out!!!!

God Bless You All in the name of Jesus Christ

----Terri Derocher

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Capture the Flag!!!  Wed, 18 Jul 2001 
Date: Thu, 2 Aug 2001 10:20:28 -0700
Subject: A Dark Room....

I would like to submit this word for your prayer and consideration to
encourage those who are now in this place. May God Bless you and
your family this week with great Hope & Provision for the work of the
Lord in the name of Jesus Christ---Terri Derocher

Right now I see us in a dark, dusty, musty room that is extremely
oppressive. WE have been in this place it seems days and months.
It has been a hopeless place...a place where the truth was around us
but we couldn't feel it, see it or know it was there. ( Jesus said I AM
the way, the TRUTH and the life. No one comes to the father except
through me! John 14:6) We go around and around in this room, barely
remembering the promises God has spoken to us. Did He really say
these things and promise HE was going to bring these things about
we ask ourselves? We are attacked again and again by those we
trust and love because they are just as frightened, just as
DISILLUSIONED in this room as we are!!! (Webster’s- 2. to take
away the ideals or idealism of and make DISAPPOINTED, BITTER,
etc.) We have become hopeless in this place!!!!!!

***** The Lord would have you to know..... Pastors and Evangelists
YOU were SENT to this location. Those things I have spoken to your heart
and the promises I have said about this place ARE TRUE!!!!!! I have
given you specific directions that I do not want you to grow weary in
carrying out. Pick up that Love and HOPE I have given you for this

Intercessors!!!!!! I KNOW YOUR PAIN even Now. You are seeing
nothing.... BUT KNOW ...I never sleep and I am working all things out
for MY GLORY!!! Do not grow weary on your watch!!!!!! Those
healings are coming the little mustard seed deep in the
ground....the water of your tears and prayers has reached this seed
and it is beginning to stir and split open and grow....DO NOT GIVE UP.....
AGAIN....PART AWAY the rags of this room...come outside....step
beyond this dark place...into my glory!!!!!! I AM here....I love you still.
You are like a child, frightened in the night by a nightmare...but listen...
I CHANGE NOT!!!!!! All that I have said I WILL bring to pass. It is all a
deception of the enemy!!!!!! Get out of that room and come into my

May God Bless you with HOPE & REVELATION today so that you
can go out and encourage others to come into the glory in the name of Jesus Christ--Terri Derocher 

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A Dark Room....  Thu, 2 Aug 2001 
Date: Mon, 6 Aug 2001 12:45:48 -0700
Subject: The Lord is With You Mighty Warriors!!!!!!!

Judges -chapter six-

I so much believe we have just come through the most intense time of testing (last ten months or so) and yet most probably don't realize we are through to the other side!!!  Like a man in a jungle you have been whacking away at the
undergrowth to make a path don't realize that your
strength and endurance and discernment (of trouble & danger) have
increased in this time.
YOU have been given a special job that God has given you. He has placed this longing and desire in your heart. He has given YOU the strength to perform this particular job...each is called to a purpose and job (some are called to the nations some to one nation in particular) for the end-time harvest. But YOU have been feeling weak and isolated and judged and inadequate for the task the Lord has called you to!!!!!
You are NOT alone!!!!!!

In the time of Gideon the evil and oppression in the land was great.  Because the power of Midia was so oppressive, the Israelites prepared shelters for themselves in mountain clefts, caves and strongholds. Judges 6:2  The Israelites were stripped of provision and a way to make any kind of living. Anything they brought from the ground or their herds was taken from them. A terror and hopelessness came on the people. They cried out to God to send a prophet. Despite the people's sin of being unfaithful to God -God IS faithful, merciful and loving and kind and HE calls and sends Gideon in answer to their cry for help.

At the moment when Gideon is called he is secretly threshing wheat in a winepress to hide it from the Midianites. He is far from hopeful, far from confident, far from feeling wise, far from feeling strong and far from feeling called of God. Listen to his reaction to the angel of the Lord in Judges 6:12-13....
When the angel of the Lord appeared to Gideon, he said, "THE LORD IS WITH YOU MIGHTY WARRIOR!!!!!!"   "But sir," Gideon replied, "if the Lord is with us, why has all this happened to us?....

Like Gideon we ponder circumstances again and again trying to understand the Lord's will in matters in our lives...trying to see His purpose in any of it ...When the truth is the enemy has snuck up and tried to attack you by isolating you, by whispering lies about your supposed ignorance and discernment....... YOU ARE A MIGHTY WARRIOR!!!! ..... Until you know that you are a mighty warrior and
rise up and shine forth the glory that the Lord has placed in you we are all held back in some vital way because YOU don't know who you are in our Lord Jesus! I want to talk about evangelism and yelling the truth and joyfully proclaiming the good news but the army is like the big, gentle, kind giants who could break bones if they lift their pinkies but they cower and are afraid of each other. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and am so thankful for you. JESUS LOVES YOU SO MUCH!!! You are so wonderful and kind and gifted. You pour forth the oil of joy and unity and encouragement! 

I have been blessed by the kindness and generosity and genuine love of the body of Christ. The enemy has tried to convince you that the rest of the body would judge and find you guilty but nothing could be further from the truth! While you cower in fear about moving out we are hindered! THE REST OF US NEED YOU!!!!! 

Gideon was so similar to us and it is so true the enemy has no new tricks!!! Look at the fear placed upon Gideon by the enemy in Judges 6:27 when the Lord asks him to destroy the asherah pole and baal's altar....So Gideon took ten of his servants and did as the Lord told him.  BUT BECAUSE HE WAS AFRAID of his family and the men of the town, he did it at night rather than in the daytime!! COME OUT OF THE DARK YOU WARRIORS!!!!!!!  God has given you HIS HOLY Spirit- the Ruach Ha Kodesh- to do His exploits in the daylight for His glory!!!!!
Like you, Gideon feared he wasn't hearing correctly from the Lord when he asked the Lord for a sign (the wool) .........Was really supposed to do all these things??? Judges 6:36.....But our Lord is so wonderful and merciful...treating Gideon (and us) like the precious children we are to him. As a little child takes his/her first steps into the arms of their parent hoping and trusting they'll be caught.. So God....sends Gideon and us.... encouragement to move out in that new place of walking instead of crawling!!!

One more thing... do you see the place in Judges 6:34 when the Spirit of the Lord came upon Gideon, and he blew a trumpet- SHOFAR- SUMMONING the warriors to follow him....If you are a mighty warrior who the Lord has instructed to get a shofar -get one now- For those who have one BLOW IT NOW over your
circumstances and your neighborhood---YOU---- call the warriors
together in your region!!!!

Today I have such a feeling of Love for the body of Christ. If you
only knew how much God loves you!!! That must be what I am
feeling....God's love and thanksgiving for YOU!!!!!! 

Terri Derocher

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The Lord is With You Mighty Warriors!!!!!!!  Mon, 6 Aug 2001 
Date: Mon, 13 Aug 2001 19:40:00 -0700
Subject: Open Them Up!!!! 

Can you feel the shaking begin????

Like an egg being cracked open and the yolk examined so are God's
people being poured forth from the shell which hid many things. Like a
dusty old trunk which held many things (some priceless and beautiful..
some old and worthless and in need of being thrown out) so it has
come to pass that the Light of the world has begun to lift open the
trunks and expose the contents to His light - the light of the world and His breath - the Holy Spirit.

Fear not the opening up and the exposing - for many of you have been
terrified of this day by the enemy... when in reality... the secret,
hidden things of your hearts and minds have been the tool the enemy
has used to enslave and ensnare you with. FEEL THE WIND OF
CHANGE BLOW!!!!! It is HIS LIFE AND HOPE!!!...gone will be the
dust and death and mildew and dank, foul odor of the trunk and like
fresh laundry blowing in the wind for all to see You will be EXPOSED
for His glory.... as He freely cleanses and dries you in HIS WIND...and
prepares you and wraps you in a garment of glory and praise for the
coming days....

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May God Bless You in the name of Jesus Christ- Terri Derocher

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Beware Of Applause...

Do you care what I think of you? One of the most pressing needs of the body of Christ is that ...each one...individually NEEDS a revelation of what it is THE LORD THINKS and knows and hopes and believes for them PERSONALLY.

Instead of intimacy and listening to what the Lord is asking you to do ---are you worrying about the rumbling sounds you hear on the perimeter of your life, perhaps some of it critical of you and your life in and for our Lord?

When we choose to pay attention to those rumbling words out there we become very unstable and open to attack. Sometimes those words will inflate you and carry you off in flattery to another land. If you cling to those words in the midst of an THEY are your will end up with no hope. The enemy has you then in this very vulnerable spot and turns and now the rumbling words become critical and hurtful ----just when you need encouragement!!!!

YOUR HOPE ONLY COMES FROM THE LORD. HE LOVES YOU AS NO PERSON CAN AND HIS KNOWLEDGE OF YOUR REAL circumstances is just that..... HIS KNOWLEDGE..... (1Cor 2:11-15) For who AMONG MEN knows the thoughts of a man except the man's
spirit within him? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. We have not received the spirit of the world but the Spirit who is from God, that WE MAY UNDERSTAND what God has freely given us. This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, expressing spiritual truths in spiritual words. The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually discerned... THIS IS A LIBERATING WORD spoken over me recently because of my struggle with this area of man's opinion!!!!!!

Quit worrying about what people think of You!!! It is not your (or my) business what any one thinks of us. YES we are to be correctable and teachable and trainable but the Holy Spirit directs that too. He who has called you is faithful to bring you to completion in Him!!!

I have been in a place where I was seeking approval--in the new city we have moved to, with family---with friends---even with strangers!!!!  WE cannot make everyone happy and it shouldn't be our concern or desire!!! We become disobedient and wishy-washy (double-minded & untrustworthy) when we put anyone's opinion above (or beside) the Lord's opinion. Is the Lord happy with your obedience???? Does He have your full attention? If you worry about MY opinion of YOU instead of worrying if God is happy you need the Lord's revelation AGAIN of you...WHO you are in Him!!! Find a copy of the I Am's in Christ....all the promises for You in scripture about who & what the Lord says about you.

If you go back to that passage above again from 1 Cor 2:11-15 it's like a little gift because if it really sinks in you also will be filled with mercy instead of a spirit of offense for those judging you that don't understand what the Lord has called YOU to do. They are innocent and waiting to be changed by the glory of God!!

Obedience to God brings complete Joy and LIBERTY-if God says do it---DO IT!!!!!! We become stopped-up rivers when we are not obedient...He fills us up with a delivery and when it is NOT delivered ... you will experience sorrow. (I see a river running and spilling off course, causing erosion and chaos and then the place the river was supposed to flow to is now dry and dying because the river never made it's destination!).... see trying to please those around you instead of the Lord is a futile, terrible mistake that I have made in the past.

......Praise the Lord.... He shows me my mistake and even somehow trusts me enough to fill me up again and He says NOW go try to pour it out again.

In being obedient......If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you.  If you suffer, it should not be as a murderer or thief or any other kind of criminal, or even as a MEDDLER. However if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name!!! 1Peter 4:14.

What is it that you are supposed to be doing for the Lord and have
been holding back because of fear of man?
DO it!!!!

May God Bless You in the name of Jesus Christ- Terri Derocher

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Beware Of Applause...  Mon, 13 Aug 2001 
Date: Tue, 21 Aug 2001 16:49:17 -0700
Subject: While You Sleep, ...He is working!!!

I'd like to submit this word (testimony) about what the Lord has
been doing with me in this past week. --Terri Derocher

What a wonderful week and to say this now would've seemed impossible at the beginning of it. I fell down the stairs last week and am very bruised and know that in the midst of all this for whatever reason...God was always in control.

When the Lord gives me something to share I feel like there is this group out there ....ageless (because that doesn't matter-young or old)....but this group is being brought forth -some are only 14 yrs old some are being brought forth into this new thing at 87...the point is there is this group of people coming forth who I believe are going through many of the things I have been experiencing in the past year and that somehow my life is very similar to theirs and that what I have been learning and going through can encourage this group also.

Now what I have been really being dealt with (STILL) is this ...fear of man thing... and you know I thought I went through this years ago but I certainly wasn't through it and moving to this new big city in the Northwest was the TOOL the Lord used to EXPOSE it and bring it to the surface. I have been terrified to drive and be apart of what He has been calling me to do...pulling out the map and just being filled with anxiety about stepping out.

I learned to dance to the Lord in a Baptist church back in New England and I thought I had learned not to fear man. (Remember...NEVER label any denomination in your mind!! The church isn't a building or a sign and the Holy Spirit will go where He is welcome and that little Baptist church is moving in revival and interdenominational prayer for revival)

But back to fear of man. I remember leaving New England and being so excited..knowing the Lord was doing something so special with our family BUT I wasn't prepared for all the changes (but I guess the Lord thought I was ready for the next stage!) and the stretching and changing (ouch!) that is still occurring. Let me tell you how scared I have been. Last weekend I KNEW the Lord was telling me to go to a Harp & Bowl 24 hr event here but I was so scared I was practically incapacitated. I went and lay on the couch and pulled the covers over
my head (no kidding!) I really didn't want to go...but the Lord used my
little spirit filled boys to encourage me, we packed sandwiches and
went. (My husband couldn't go because of a work commitment)

...But EVERYTHING was prepared for us ahead of time. The first human I see, in this place of about 400,000 was the woman the Lord had used to prophesy over me last March when we'd only been in town a couple months...she is the one I have felt safest with. I had no idea anyone I knew would be there but this woman insisted I stay with her and her husband and the whole evening unfolded. I was blessed with dancing with flags (with the bruises!) and the glorious presence of the Lord filled this outdoor location. In the end of the time we were walked safely back to our car by another couple I trust so much.

Now the next thing I want to say is the new website I released July 19th is somehow connected via other sites -one of which I knew nothing about and people are finding it in ways I knew nothing of!!! I found out the Lord has been working behind the scenes in ways I couldn't have imagined for about the last 5 months. The Lord has taken this little scared girl (that's how I have felt sometimes!) and has gone before me at EVERY place!!!! NOW I SAY THIS TO
ENCOURAGE YOU!!!!! God is working ON YOU BEHALF RIGHT NOW in ways you CANNOT imagine. He is even bringing my prodigal son (23 yrs old) home after being gone for seven years. (It HASN"T HAPPENED YET BUT SOON!) I have received TWO LONG phone calls in the last two weeks. In the past I have spoken to him over the phone at the most including these present calls 8 times in the last seven years (yes it has been painful. but God is so good always!) but
IT'S HAPPENING & IT'S COMING!!!!!!!!! Don't give up Moms & Dads.....They're coming home. Something is breaking open RIGHT NOW!!!!!
Now this is perhaps the most personal time of sharing with you I have ever done.... BUT I FEEL IT IS IMPORTANT for you to know and NOT GIVE UP!!!!!! OUR LORD JESUS.......IS.......WORKING ON YOUR BEHALF right NOW!!!!! ...So go..... dance & worship & PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME!!!! HE IS MAGNIFICENT AND so WORTHY of ALL OUR PRAISE!!!!! BE Blessed in the GLORIOUS Name of OUR
- Terri Derocher

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While You Sleep, ...He is working!!!  Tue, 21 Aug 2001 
Date: Thu, 30 Aug 2001 19:06:27 -0700
Subject: Are Broken Things Still Beautiful????

1 Thessalonians 5:18

I am the mother of three sons and the Lord speaks to me through the life I am living and I am FLOODED with gratitude today like sweet honey being poured on my head!

I am surrounded by broken things in my life, many, of them broken by my sons or myself. Now I must say ten years ago and longer when these things were being broken I would scream and fuss and grieve (yes that's sin!) over this pitcher broken by a football or my china doll who had a leg broke in tug of war or the broken plate of the lighthouse that was to remind me of when we lived in I look back on it some of the grief wasn't just because I was greedy and wanted things (although in part this was playing a part) but also because they were made by someone I loved (many by my mother) or were given to me by a cherished friend. After the time of grief at the THING being taken from me by being broken and ruined I would remember super-glue and glue all these things back together. I probably could count close to fifty things all glued back together in our home. They look good from afar but on inspection you see the imperfections. I remember a beautiful glued together vase my mother made and someone once wanted to borrow it for a Women's Aglow meeting but finding it broken and unable to hold what they'd desired it would hold declined the offer
to use it. To me the glue has made them more beautiful!!!!! How
does it possibly work????

The thing is they each were given back to me after they were glued back together after being broken apart. I found I loved and appreciated them perhaps ten fold more because they were even fuller of memories and gratitude. Yes the boys were never to play or toss a football in the house but..... wow what a memory now of all these times.... them brushing their teeth together and breaking my bowl and playing together... loving being with each other and the broken thing still reminds me of my mother or friend but it means so much more NOW because it has been restored and we all
have learned lessons from it.

I have given up houses that the Lord pried from my greedy little fingers because I thought this is the one and He said YOU ARE HOLDING TOO TIGHTLY to things. We are in our third home we have owned (Praise be to God, I do not take this for granted!) BUT a home will never own me and the Lord has taught me to let go and let him send us where He will. He takes so much better care of me than I ever
would myself. His standards and provision are so much more than I would even hope for. He KNOWS what is BEST FOR YOU ALSO.....even when you FEEL (don't trust that emotion) you NEED something else!

I once had a beautiful new refrigerator with fancy this and that and when we sold our first home it went with the house. We then rented this old home in need of many repairs and the refrigerator (30 yrs old) was tomato red. The inside of the refrigerator was held together with duck tape and I HATED that fridge. I was embarrassed of it (can't hide a red fridge!) and covetously dreamed of that old fridge. Over the next four years....the Lord knew how long I needed to be corrected in this area...I learned to accept and appreciate this old fridge (and lots of other seemingly ugly things. It ran well, kept the food cold & frozen,
and didn't produce a high electric bill. I am now two refrigerators later.  I have a big beautiful fridge that I ask the Lord about (why do I have it now?) and it is very strange I don't grip tightly in this place any longer and can let go if He says do it. I passed the test so now it's o.k and unimportant!

Do you TRUST the Lord to know what is best for you????? He is so trustworthy and even with relationships knows the proper time and seasons for change and growth.

You will never be flooded with such joy and gratitude as when you are given back something that was lost, broken or destroyed and believe me God can create again even that which we believe is destroyed.  MINISTRIES? HEALTH? ummmm....

Today is our 15 year wedding anniversary and I am so full of joy and thanksgiving for this also because 10 years ago I wouldn't have imagined the LOVE and gratitude and thanksgiving my heart is bursting with towards my husband. But in this area also....God restored and rebuilt and remade and created anew what I felt was broken. Hand it over to God ...whatever it is...because HIS POWER

You have no idea what good can be made out of your broken life.... the beauty increases until it is so strong and wonderful you can't imagine more and then more comes!!

Thessalonians 5:18.....The Lord would have you to know again you are to....Give thanks in ALL circumstances ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...For that is God's will for you in Christ Jesus...

It is hard to give thanks over everything when we don't know the trust worthiness of our Lord. But YOU do know and so this is the key...if you knew now what you will know THEN you will be grieved you were not thankful in the midst....BE thankful Now and PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME IN THE FIRE!!!!!!!!

God Bless You and May He Flood you with Gratitude now in the
name of Jesus Christ!!!

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